Wednesday, December 30, 2015
When you look at a picture or watch a video of some beautiful, far-off place, does it stir within you a desire to visit that place? To see if for yourself? Or are you content to have seen the image or video, and wonder, in awe of such beauty, from the comfort of your own chair. Now think.... Have you always been this way? When, as a child you read a book, or watched tv and imagined or saw something that drew you in. Did you want to be there? Did you think of being there... going there?
What are you going to be when you grow up?
I'm going to do that someday.
I'm going to go there someday.
I'm going to see that for myself someday.
I am saddened today by these thoughts as they come from my mind to my fingers. Why? Because today I have come to the realization of my use of the words, "lost", "empty" and "nothing". In retrospect, do I want to type any one of these words in the Search Box on this blog? I may, someday, but I don't want to go there today. I'm already there. My silent tears fill up the well of my soul, for I am, and always have been, complacent in this existence. Someday and all its trappings doesn't exist.
Saturday, December 26, 2015
Woke up this morning and had a shower. Getting dressed started off well. Underwear, turtleneck... I stopped there. Who was I fooling? I donned an old set of clean red plaid flannel pjs, socks, and then the new tender tootsie bootie slippers that I had received for Christmas. I guess it worked out fine as I ended up taking a nap... or two...